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Will He be there? Will He provide?
I had some weird thoughts today. Well, many of you may start to feel that I am a person without firm decision. I asked myself few questions. Am I really prepared to settle down at RiverLife? Is this really His ultimate plan for me? Well, I started to stumble again. Thinking of things that contradict each other. I don't know whether it was my own decision or God's decision that I should change a church. I do not know whether it was yet another act of impatience. I know that I shouldn't be asking these questions now, as I should've asked them before any decision is made. Just as I was wondering, another question came to my mind. What is the Purpose of going to Church? This is indeed a simple yet complicated question. Going to Church just because of the music? The people? The atmosphere? The feeling? NO way !!! Going to church is to have fellowship with both God and fellow siblings-in-Christ. Then, am I attending church for the right purpose and right aim? Well, it's a 80% yes to that question. However, I felt that although the vertical relationship (with God) is there, the horizontal one (with siblings) is still not yet built. Is this another message from God? I dare not think. Maybe it's because that I am still new to them or maybe I am an introvert and "shy" to interact. At Emmaus, the brothers were friendly. They would take the initiative to get to know the new-comers and to build relationship with them. Well, maybe I am 50% correct. God did prompted me to change a church, but He never say that it's RiverLife. Maybe I should attend RiverLife as a visitor instead of a member. Well, not that I doubt God. It's just to play safe as it may not be pleasing to God if I go to a place that is not intended for me. In the meantime, I think that I should really look around and find an ideal place, where God intended for me, and settle down. Be it RiverLife or any other, as long as it is pleasing in God's eye, I do not mind.
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