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Maybe I did the RIGHT thing
Maybe I didn't.
I expressed my discontent to the two of them today. I told them how I felt. How hurt it was to have people whom I treated as brothers (in-christ) to insult me in every aspects. One of them rebuked by saying that they were helping me to train my endurance. However, that was just a lie. A WHITE LIE. Sarcasm! Listen to the tone he used, the way that he spoke. It was as if he was possessed by the devil. I really wanted to give him a punch right in the face at that time. God (the Spirit) stopped me. He granted me self-control. Thank God. Well, I continued the conversation with a solemn tone, serious expression and caused the atmosphere to be a sober one. However, they just treated them as jokes and continued to laugh and didn't take my words seriously. Lord, maybe I should leave them. Should I? I can't compromise with them any longer. I will go bonkers. It's both physical and mental struggles. It's hard to get along with them. Lord, please help me. Convert this hatred into love. Into brotherly-love, that You have commanded. I really wish to live according to Him. In accordance to the Holy Spirit and set my minds on the things above. This earth is just temporal, it will fade away someday. But the kingdom up there will never cease. Well, furthermore, I have another prayer request here. Please pray for me on whether I should leave Emmaus. Pray for God's guidance for me. Pray that He will lead me where I can grow and glorify Him in every ways. Well, there is a a-maths re-test tomorrow. hmm... well... studied only a bit... still lack of confidence... well... I should stufy now... bye...
crucified
at 10:16:00 PM
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