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well, didn't go to school today. had gastric problem early in the morning. hmm... messaged mr. lian to inform him about my absence... and asked angela to provide the side gate people with some conduct slips and to brief them what to do... haiz... hahaz... shouldn't have taken the file back for compilation. well... kinda miss school... hahaz... i am serious... hmm... there will be social studies and science paper 1 mock exam tomorrow... followed by foundation class... haiz... a tiring day ahead... well...must always look on the brighter side of life... the BRIGHTER side...
well, before i go, let me share some history... killed (hurt) yet another person yesterday... with my tongue... i do not know how come those words could eventually come out from my mouth... i regretted saying them... well... i also don't know why... just felt that i was possessed by the evil one... oh God, save me... well... just as i began to think that life is getting better, problems started to arise... one after another... maybe they are there to spice up my calm, peaceful and boring life... well... maybe they are trials set by the Heavenly one... well... i must admit that there was one point where i really find no meaning in life and had the thought of ending it.... but... that foolish thought didn't last... and i will never let it comes back... i must preserve this life. i must walk till the end and let Him use me as an instrument to light up somebody else's lives... though i may suffer persecution, mockings, scorning or even slandering, i shall never give up so easily... i shall hold on... for i know He is with me all the while... through all situations and suffering, He will not leave me.... i shall fear nothing.... ABSOLUTELY NOTHING...
well, i prayed to Him yesterdae night in accordance to this.... I eventually cried before Him... I asked Him to control my tongue as it is the most powerful weapon someone can ever possess.... I do not wish to kill (hurt) anyone else with my tongue anymore, especially my fellow-in-christ... I also pour out my sorrows to Him... about the moment when the people around me slander me, mock me and saying things that hurt me deep... I told Him how I felt and how I wish to fight back... and also how the Spirit in me stopped me... "Child, it will soon be over! Fear not, Daddy is here"... my eyes turned red after saying this phrase... "Yes, Daddy, I will obey You."... i bore them all...
you may think that i am saying all these to make people sympathize me... but frankly speaking, i am not... i just want you guys to know that everything will be okay if you let Him (God) take control of your life.... and when you listen to Him, everything will be alright, everything will be so calm that couldn't believe. He never promise that we will not get hurt... sometimes, it's just one of the many rocks that have hitted us, while the rest hitted Him... and this belief has saved my life and brought my thus far.... and it will lead me on... till the day He comes back...
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