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I am currently having a feeling which even me myself do not know how to describe. Feel like something is missing from my life, and feel like something is going to be taken away from me. There are so many things, yes, SOO MANY... for me to worry about. Who? What? Why? When? Where? How?... I keep asking myself countless questions but I do not have any answer for them. What am I doing? Why am I like this? Feel like committing suicide... but I will not do that... And one more thing, I just couldn't feel God's presence recently. Where is He? Why did He forsake me?... see, I am questioning again. So many things happened these few days... loads of secrets were leaked, and many things and incidents seem to bother me alot, i mean ALOT... School? it's getting "stresser" more each day... so many things to be done, so many work to be accomplished... how am I going to survive? Is there any short-cut for me to go to the future? or to the past? Discipline? I am losing it, more and more everyday... no discipline in studies, no discipline in quiet time and no discipline in personal life... why? i need some directions... is this a trial? or am I reaching the place of eternal destruction? i do not know... can someone out there shout out the solution?
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