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Monday, August 16, 2004

So much things to say. But where should I begin?

Maybe I should use a different colour this time. Sick of the "all-time-black" style. This morning was the moment when all the graduating prefects would have a mixed feeling. (I am not sure about the rest, but to me, definitely). We would probably put on our blazers for the final time, unless we are doing ushering duty for Teachers' Day. Well, I guess so. We got our certificate this morning. that marked the end of our prefect lives. We are no longer engaged with the daily prefects' duties. no longer need to have a large portion of our recess taken up. No longer need to attend the meetings. Before stepping down, we were all complaining about the demanding duties, long meetings and so much tasks. However, when I look back now, there is a feeling of "yi yi bu she". To some people, stepping down is a relief, but to some, it's like losing a part of our lives. Imagine you stop doing a daily routine such as stop brushing your teeth, stop bathing... Well, just as a saying goes, "everything that has a beginning has an end". Maybe it's time for us to let go and let the younger generation to take over and play the role. Well, at least we started well and ended well as well. Therefore, there is not regret.

I wish to thank God for leading me to the board. Making it possible to serve in the board. Indeed, I've learnt many lessons which would aid me in my future. I was trained to lead bravely. I was taught to work humbly. I was given the opportunity to discover my inner, hidden potential. I learnt the importance of time, trust, friendship, leadership and relying on God. Without Him, I can do nothing. He gave me strength when I was weak. He granted me grace and mercy when I committed any mistakes. He provided me with courage when I needed them. He lent me a shoulder, when I need Him. Well, words alone can't explain my deepest gratitude to Him. I really feel like shout His name to the sky and give Him a tight hug.

It was the Teachers' Day rehearsal this afternoon. 99% of the prefects did not know a single word or tune of the song. Well, we planned to meet in the prefects' room to learn the song at 2pm. However, only a few, turned up. Well, it was a great disappointment though. Well, I tried to sing it to them, but they seemed either uninterested or erm... blurred? Well, played amie's singing on the mp3 player to them. Well, they learnt pretty fast and I was hoping that the rehearsal would be a success.

3.30pm arrived so quickly. We had to report to the hall. There was an obvious lack of coordination. No one knows what to do other than passing negative comments. That definitely demoralise us (those who heard). Soon, it was our turn. Everything turned out to be a mess. The piano was out-of-tune, only a few were singing, and everything was such a failure (as I cannot consider it a success). Well, I can see that many of the prefects had tried their best.

"Amie, I can see that you've done your best. You don't have to be sad, alright? Everything's not your fault. It's just the lack of coordination and desire in them. Give them some time and everything would be alright soon. Cheer up!"

The rehearsal ended at around 5.30pm. Well, I felt a little dizzy and pain in my head. Think that it was developed by stress. I read from somewhere that Stress would result in headache and dizziness. Well, wanted to walk home but was afraid that I might collapse on the road and killed by any car. Therefore, decided to take a bus home.

Tomorrow would be my "day". It's the O Level English Oral Examination tomorrow. For me. Well, Pray for me. hmm.. gues I got to go le... byebye...

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